my cycles are confusing

As of today, I am DPO 7 and CD 23. I ovulated a little later than normal and I am also aware that my projected AF date is on CD32, I've never gotten AF on CD32. CD31 has been the longest cycle I've had since March at least. And my cycles vary from 27-31 days. So it's kinda difficult to be appropriately excited/nervous/shitting myself scared/wanting to POAS, but is it too early?... I really have no idea when to expect AF this month. I know I ovulated a little later, but does that necessarily mean AF will be later too?

I really am keeping myself busy so I dont read into symptoms and just to help to not think about it all day long...see my last post if you want proof...haha. But really...I am pretty go with the flow this 2WW and hopefully it stays that way!


I will keep you all updated on my cycle, and hopefully I will be able to report a BFP!

Nikky

You are now entering the 2ww...

Oh joy! the two week wait!
Now that our home is sick-free, we were ready to jump back on that pogo stick (so to speak of course). I actually ovulated late this month. I haven't been temp-ing, but i have been using OPKs. I started testing at CD9, then CD11, and then everyday after that. Unfortunately, I didn't get a positive read until CD16! So who flippin knows what will happen with AF this month (if anything--fingers crossed). While I'm not trying to over analyze this time around, I will keep a written journal so I can go back and see what my early pregnancy symptoms might have been. :) Also, we have been really busy with the house, and harvesting our veggies from the garden. Our county fair is going on this weekend so it will definitely keep us busy as well. Hopefully time will go by fast and I will soon know!

Today is CD 18, possible 2 DPO. Many baby blessing to you all!
Nikky

CD5

Cycle 2 of TTC. 
Cycle Day 5 
I remembered to temp this morning! Hurray! 

No news on the TTC front as of right now. I did, however, have this really weird moment today at work. It was a pretty stressful day to start off with. One person called in sick, another was going to be late, two extra children showed up that weren't on the schedule so I had to magically pull an extra teacher out of my butt (not a pretty thought, thank you very much) to cover the class with the extra children. So, on top of all that, I couldn't start making breakfast for the kids. My boss came in and was busy with her emails and I couldn't update her on all of this. For some reason, this made me break down and cry. How silly! So of course in the back of my mind, I'm thinking well...your period was a day shorter than usual... NO no no! I refuse to think that I am pregnant. Yes, it could happen. BUT...chances are slim. My period usually is like this 
Day1 spot
Day 2-4 medium to light
Day 5 spot

this time it was 
Day1 spot
Day 2 medium
Day 3 light
Day 4 spot
So not much of a difference. But any TTC-ers know that we definitely make mountains out of molehills. 
So that's all I have for now...I hope this post finds you all very well!
Baby Dust!
Nikky

accomplishments

Today was pretty successful! I woke up pretty early and ran to Walmart to get the last few things I needed to can pickles. Also a few things we needed for this weeks meal plan. I love that i am meal planning, Everything flows, and I really enjoy having something ready. Usually I figure I could cook something, but never really feel like it, and I usually end up making something weird. But now that I'm planning 6 out of 7 dinners for the week, I feel super accomplished and feel that I have provided for my husband. My "wifely duties" I suppose (not that he thinks that, I just enjoy doing these things). 

Anyways, so after Walmart I did the dishes, and got the water boiling in my canner. I sterilized my jars and lids. Scott and I went out to the garden to pick cucumbers. (Garden photos coming, I swear.) We picked two gallon buckets full, and I got to work cleaning and cutting them. We ended up with 5 quart jars of dill pickles! Wahoo!!! Scott also picked some beans and carrots that we cleaned and cut and got in the freezer for future meals. After I got everything cleaned up, I decided to make chicken caesar salad (hold the croutons). So I grilled up come chicken breast, and got a gigantic salad going. Delicious! (I also had enough left for two huge salads for work this week.) Once I finally sat down I realized it was only 12:30! Dang! I got so much done! 

Cycle Day 4. I actually haven't temped the last two days. Mostly out of sleeping in and having to pee so bad that I didn't have time to temp when I finally did wake up. Back to it tomorrow though.

So as far as the fitness goes. My phone is a POS. The new app I downloaded for my fitness/diet was taking up too much space and my phone freaked out. So I had to delete it. So I will need a new way to stay accountable. Yesterday was a street fair we have every year in our town. Scott and I walked it twice and then back home. So I will use that as my workout. 

I think I will post my menu plan for the week in the next post. :) 

Take care everyone!

Nikky

I should know in the next few days...

CD26 DPO12

Still a BFN, :( I am a bit discouraged, but honestly, I'm suprise by how positive I'm staying. Knowing only 65% of women get a bfp before cd12.

While in the shower this morning, I noticed tons of little baby veins and they were bright red. I have never noticed them before. I asked Scott about them, since he keeps pretty close tabs on the girls (lol). He said he's never noticed them either, and he thought my nipples were darker. Idk, I keep going back and forth...this is my first 2ww, and it feels like 2 months have gone by!

I have been watching some more YouTube mommies, I love seeing nursery tours and baby shower hauls :)
Nikky

Sometimes I wish...

Sometimes I wish I wasn't temp-ing. Then I wouldn't get disappointed if my temp went down. It wasn't over the crosshair, but still down. I know this isn't a definite bfn, but its definitely discouraging. 3 more days til Sunday test day! I'm really going to try to make it to dpo12 without testing. More later...have a great day yall!
Nikky

America's Bday

Happy 4th of July!

I am currently CD22 / DPO8. I am so antsy!! I cant wait to start testing! But of course I am afraid of being disappointed with a BFN! Booo. So here i wait....

Now, in past cycles (before i was tracking my temps) my cycles varied in length. I had never noticed this before I started tracking my cycles. March was 29 days, April 27, and May 31! WTF?! So its a little difficult to think, "Oh I can start testing 5 days before i should get AF"...when the heck would that be exactly?! And even if I wait awhile, and say I'll test if AF is late...well at CD27, Im going to start stressing out, "Am I late? Should I take a test? Is that a cramp? Is it starting? I need to take a test. No I should wait." Ahhh!!! So you see the pickle I'm in. Plus, Fertility Friend has tagged CD14 as my O-day, but I got my O-cramps on CD15, so Im not sure if i should wait an extra day or not. wow...I really need to calm down about this! 

Ok, here's my plan...

I will wait to test until sunday morning. Which will be CD26 / DPO12. I would normally get AF between CD27-31. So I obviously have some extra waiting and praying in there, but at least I have a plan. 

On to fun news, I have off of work today! Wahooo! We really have no plans, other than pick up a few groceries. (green apples & peanut butter for me, and ice cream for Scott) What exciting lives we live... perhaps more later.

Baby Dust!
Nikky

Welcome and Introductions

Hello there!
My name is Nikky Fischer, I am 26 years old and I currently work as a lead preschool teacher and assistant director of my daycare. My husband Scott is 25, and we have been married for 9 months. He owns his own farm, and is renovating our house into a two family. I am writing this blog as a way to document our journey in trying to conceive (TTC). I also would love to find a ttc community to help pass the time in the two week wait (2WW).
A little bit about myself:
I am 5'4", 240lbs. (definitely heavier than i would want to be ideally, but i love myself!) 
I love to garden, and conserve as much as possible. I am very crafty and create many things. I love love love to cook! I love the challenge of mixing flavors and textures. This challenge became even more difficult when i started eating gluten free 1.5 years ago. (more on that later) I enjoy walking, love hiking and swimming! But most of all enjoy spending time with my amazing husband! (Insert Awwww....) 

This is TTC cycle 1. 

I am currently DPO 4, on CD 18. here is my chart on fertility friend http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/3d5e31 

I am exhausted today. I went to bed early enough.(Not my normal time, but still before 11) so i know i shouldn't be tired from lack of sleep. i even slept in later, and took a quick snooze around noon today. i just cant shake it. I don't know if its allergies, or b/c i mowed my brother's lawn yesterday and my body is sore. I just don't know. i guess time will tell, but of course i am over analyzing everything! 

Ive been following a few YT mommies and their ttc, pregnancy, mommy vlogs. I will add their pages below so you can find them as well.

Here is my journey thus far: 

A few months ago, I began getting baby fever. My husband and I have been married for 9 months as of tomorrow. :) I began searching for midwives/doulas/birth centers/etc so i could be more informed when the time came. I came across a doula in my area named rachel. we corresponded through emails and she recommended a doctor that supports natural childbirth, a few midwives,  and a few other resources. One of those resources was the documentary "The Business of Being Born" and I youtubed it to see if i could find any clips. Well low and behold, I came across the full documentary! I watched it twice in the same day! And 3 more times since then. Well thanks to the magic of YT, it suggested other videos that were similar, and i began watching other homebirth videos. Including Lucy and Joel Eades of xxxjoelpolexxx. And my obsession began. From their videos, i found other YT mommies and all of their stories. i fell in love with home birth. I knew for a long time that i wanted to cloth diaper my children and following these lovely ladies and only cemented my decision. I have always wanted to breastfeed, and baby wear so i felt so much at home with their stories. Now, if only i had a decent working camera to make some TTC videos!

Anyways, so far, I have made a few purchases and also sewn a few things as well. Our local JoAnn's was having a huge moving sale so i found some PUL and other materials for great deals. I made my first cloth pocket diaper! It turned out cute! Also, i made a taggy soft block, and a cute little owl toy. I also made some inserts out of old towels. I bought a 3 pack of white Carter's onesies and 2 fancy pants one size pocket diapers. http://fancypantsdiapers.com/

Some of my Favorite YouTube Mommies:

plus1please  

http://www.youtube.com/user/plus1please

NaturallyThriftyMom

http://www.youtube.com/user/NaturallyThriftyMom

CandidMommy 

http://www.youtube.com/user/CandidMommy

MamaNaturalBlog 

http://www.youtube.com/user/MamaNaturalBlog

xxxjoelpolexxx

http://www.youtube.com/user/xxxjoelpolexxx

I will keep this updated as I wait wait wait....I will post websites, fun ideas, baby buys, and all things natural! W00T! 

Baby dust to you all!

Nikky